At times I feel that I am entrapped in Maya and try to extricate myself. ….

At other times I feel that I am the Atma which is changeless and pure. I am looking for your Kripa which will certainly take me out of this ocean of troubles. Any instructions?

You are in the struggling stage. You are doubtless progressing. You will soon be
established in your real Svarup. Fear not. Plod on. Persevere. Don’t look back. March on
boldly. The goal is very near. Be a Sakshi of all your actions. You are Asanga, Akarta
(unattached, non-doer). Thou art that Immortal Atma!

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